Everything Is Great. Everything Is Terrible. This Is Entrepreneurship.
Everything is going absolutely great.
And things are also going horribly.
It’s really sinking in that I haven’t signed a client in Q1, and we’re approaching the end of February. I didn’t expect the year to go like this. I still have another month — I can absolutely turn this around — but just stay with me here.
At the end of Q4 2024, I had six clients.
I had just finished a Basquiat exhibition and killed the campaign with tons of press. I supported PR for a Goldman Sachs event where a gallery I rep partnered with them to curate a show. I got a couple of my clients in Forbes. Things were really looking up.
I had so many client proposals out. I was preparing for growth. I was ready.
And they just didn’t close.
Some of them are still out there, and my fingers are crossed that they sign. I have clients on my roster whose contracts will soon be up, and while things are going great with their outreach, I’m just hoping they’re able to re-sign.
My son is starting daycare soon. I’m extremely excited because I need my time back more than ever — but it’s also a new bill. A lot of responsibility. A new reality.
I’m in limbo.
But here’s the other side.
I just finished curating an event at a $3.2 million home in front of major CEOs and hedge fund owners during All-Star weekend in West Hollywood.
I’ve garnered partnerships with bank executives, tech founders, and investor advisors.
Not only that, I’ve been brought on to do event planning, brand partnerships, and assist with PR for a dinner at one of the most well-known art residencies in Los Angeles.
I just secured a position as the head of hotel residency partnerships with an agency that’s super credible in the arts and entertainment world.
And lastly, I just got brought on as sales for a gallery I’ve been doing PR for over a year. The first collection I’m working on is truly life-changing. If I can broker this deal, it will absolutely change the entire trajectory of my career.
So here I am.
Stuck between truly grateful and “Why did you pick me, Yahweh?!”
Was I really in line for the strongest soldier?
I’m staying positive. Head down. Working hard. As always.
Something I read recently said: “Stay in rhythm.”
The best way to receive things is to stay in routine. Discipline. The only way to expect something to come is if you know you did the work required to receive it.
This isn’t doubt in myself — not at all. I know my capabilities.
But I’m not sure if this is a wondering or just a question. Maybe it’s a moment for me to go deeper on why this is or isn’t happening now.
Maybe it’s both.
Stay in rhythm.
That’s what I keep coming back to.
Not every season looks the same. Not every quarter produces the same results. But the rhythm — the consistency, the discipline, the faith — that’s what carries me through.
Maybe I don’t sign clients in Q1. (Yah forbid…please) But I curated an event in a $3.2 million dollar home. I built partnerships with people who can shift my entire trajectory. I secured roles that position me for long-term growth, not just immediate revenue.
Maybe this isn’t the season of signing retainers. Maybe this is the season of building infrastructure. Of laying groundwork. Of preparing for what’s coming next.
I don’t know yet.
But I’m staying in rhythm.
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